the amazing amazement

the micro network of nerves and vessels in my body are blocked today and i am unable to conjure up the words that i need to express myself properly. bear with me...and at anytime that i seem to be lost and ranting nonsensically, humour me.

anyway, today i want to talk about the powers that be. what does that mean? even wikipedia have no idea what i was asking. or is it that i just don't know how to ask. to me, in this modern age, the powers that be is the internet.

i have never realised the power of the super information highway. i do look up the net for any information that i need but it's such a hassle to sieve through all that information for the exact one that i want. but lately, this 'thing' has become like a second skin to me. read on.

last year, a guy found me through some 'lost friends' website that i have registered ages ago. it seems that he went to the same primary school and college that i did. he also studied in the same town for uni. bearing in mind that all three sites were in different countries, i see it as a great coincidence. or maybe fate. he could even name common friends and teachers, despite the fact that he was one year my junior. it amazes me that someone i do not know matched my footsteps in life so closely. anyway, he turned out to be some kind of semi-stalker. well, i never said that it is a good thing.

then, my cousin managed to track down my very first puppy love. this i have blogged about, so there's not much to say on it, until i meet up with him again. still, it just boggles my mind that people i have not seen or heard of in ages, suddenly become very accessible to me.

last week, i decided to google my best friend in singapore, during my secondary school days. yes, there was one single match for that name and i had a very strange feeling. call it intuition. call it premonition. i was very sure that this lady was
the friend that i have lost contact with ages ago. there wasn't any doubt in my mind. if you have ever searched for a person on the net, you will know that there are thousands of people out there with the same name and the chances of you finding the one that you want is next to never.



i took the chance that this lady will think of me as a perverted sexual creep and sent an e-mail to her. lo and behold. she replied and yes, she is the one and the same. i am really excited. to be able to find my friend again after all these years. people that i have written off and resigned to becoming just a memory. i just feel like dancing and jumping around with joy and excitement but i refrain myself for the only reason that i am a sensible and practical person.

there are more. two years ago, i think, i googled a guy who discarded me like a moth-eaten cloth eons ago. i thought we were dating and everything was going smoothly. suddenly, he stopped contacting me and just disappeared from the face of the earth, or was it just from my life. with no explanation whatsoever. anyway, i found him and know him to be happy and healthy. that's all i ask then.

hmmm....speaking of which, there is another guy just like that. but i have never managed to locate him. is it me or are these guys too wimpy? what is it about them? as far as i know, i have never devoured another person alive, so the least they owe me will be an explanation or a closure. jerks. i really did have very bad vision back then. anyway, i'm digressing.

i've also found other friends, but at the moment, i do not have the initiative to contact them. or the motivation. maybe one day when my spirit and body is moving in harmony.

there are others that i have not been able to find. but i believe it's just a matter of time. for one reason or another, your name will come up on the internet. hopefully, it's not when you are arrested for streaking across the city hall or when you decide to pocket that $50 bill that do not belong to you (yes, you know i am talking about you *grins*)