if i'm not making sense, it's cos i'm tired. if i'm ranting, it's cos i'm over-loaded. if i'm writing here, it's cos i'm seeking for an escape. a temporary one.
i've got too many balls to juggle at the moment. my brain is too tired to even come up with the words my heart want to express.
when you don't take offence, everything is dumped into your lap. it's also my fault. i'm born with a impaired gene; one which makes me HAVE to do everything, one which makes me HAVE to please everybody. psychoanalysts say it's because you want people to like you.....i'm not so sure about that. i guess it just seems like the easier alternative.
when a situation arise, everybody's most concerned. everybody flocks to the scene, asking, caring, trying to help. when the situation persists, people's interest are no longer there. nobody cares anymore. it doesn't matter who dies, who needs help, how the people at the scene standing-by are ready to drop from sheer tiredness or however dire the situation has become. nobody's interested anymore cos it's old news.
happens everywhere. in all situations. when people fall sick, in the politics, in the house, marriage....every situation where the situation gets stale. it seems....nobody like old news. old is gold? that's only for the fools.
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Sorry for being crude but I have reasons to believe that you are a pettifogging person.
because of u, i learnt a new word today. *grins* had to look up the word. reminds me a little of the word petticoat...but this is all irrelevant to yr comment.
in a public blog, i can reveal only so much information and details. that's why you will not know what i am going through, how i am feeling. i used examples, which are perhaps weak, but so that ppl who know me and do read the blog will not be overly concerned. perhaps i do not how to properly express my emotions at this point...... perhaps i'm too tired to do so and merely wish to just leave it here instead of trying to justify or understand it.....
but no, i don't think i'm pettifogging.
i guess, unless the person is really close to heart, nobody would have the capacity to feel sad for tt person all the time. or rather, they may still feel sad but they won't show it.
Huh? Too many balls to juggle ah?
Aiyah...why your hubs and relatives leave them all over the place geh? LOL
dear serene: even when one is close, one will 'aclimatise' to the news. it's just human nature.
dear cocka: most of those balls are firmly attached and cannot be juggled *kicks cocka* :-p
Thanks...
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