the blogosphere is a strange place.
when the world is cold and unfriendly, when your friends are not many......you turn to the blogosphere. people from all races and places drop by, hanging on to every word that you say, faithfully tuning in day afer day to the crap that you write. when you are happy, they are there, cheering you as you go along. when you are down, they turn up in troves, with words so touching to support you on your journey.
as time goes, you believe. you think of them as your friends. they probably know more about you than any other friend you have.
then you realise. most of them haven't actually been listening. most of them don't really care. they read....but they don't listen. you disappear for a few days. they let you be. some turn up, looking for new updates. some move on. some don't even realise you are gone.
then the cold truth hits you....it's all a mirage. the love is not really there. you can't tell the difference from those that really care or those who wants some entertainment to pass the day. friends shouldn't be like that......
a friend will call me when i am down. a friend will call me when she doesn't hear from me. a friend will know what's best for me and pull me out for some company even when she knows i don't want to see anybody. a friend will try to make me laugh when she knows i am down. a friend can feel it when i am down. a friend will scold me when i need scolding. a friend will not leave me alone.
7 comments:
I agree with you.Blogs are a great way of making friends.But the cordial touch and warmth is missing there.It cannot be substituted for childhood or college friends.You'll love to check out some interesting friendship ideas in the blog that I write.
*Hands up*.....I'm guilty as hell...read but missed out the listening part.
Ok ok from now on, I'll smother you with attention.
My dear lady, you need to open up yourself and unwrap the self-centered thinking towards the matter you are tackling.
Others may felt pressured or threatened by your mild vindictive nature, and likewise, you will gain no sympathy by brooding over a sense of guilt.
Built up your courage, break up the silence and things will turn favourable and go the way your mind and heart has all this while wanted.
Best of luck...
Cheers.
dear robert: thank you for dropping by....will drop by to check out your ideas :-)
dear cocka: haha. it wasn't a plea for attention...it was an observation. i'm actually rather comfortable with you listening but not hearing. hahahaha. sometimes the things that we do expose can get quite scary to ourselves.
dear licky: i read, and i re-read. it sounds like someone giving me good advice and i peel my ears, hoping to find some clues ....but i must admit..i'm lost.
self-centered about the matter i'm tackling? friends? friends are for giving, not receiving...but when you've given and given...and you stop for a little while...and you realise nobody's actually there...you feel disillusioned. it's more of a discovery, actually...although a slightly ugly one. but vindicative? i can't figure how. i hide here to write my true feelings so that i won't disturb the regulars with my observation...i don't advertise this place for people to come and read....i don't see how it can be vindicative to others?
brooding? perhaps. that's who i am...always mulling things in the head. perhaps a friend will be more accepting of who i am and not judgemental?
last part also don't understand...break my silence to whom? announce to the whole world my feelings? not many people would care to hear, you know.
maybe i missed the point of your good advice....i'm so blur always :-)
yea, reality sinks in after awhile that bloggers are there to give you that "temporary high" if you need one. though I'm optimistic that some do become good friends and not just another name in Blogsphere. after all, behind those names and blogs are real people. ;-)
we are not that bad... i am sure there're genuine concern somewhere.
dear may: perhaps....when you open up.....you are surrounded by friends. a sweet and sincere girl like you...we can't help but like you.
dear zewt: really? at that precise microsecond, i'm sure the concern are genuine....otherwise we will all be very hypocritical, saying things we don't mean, wouldn't it? but is that what being friends is all about? caring for that one second? shouldn't there be more?
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